Help me - I'm not ready to give up yet

"How can you ever sleep a wink at night
Pretending that everything is all right
And have the balls to blame this mess on me...
Never in my life have I seen someone
So fucking blind to the damage he has done
You're the rotted root in the family tree
(...)
Expecting everyone to bow and kiss your feet
Don't you see respect is not a one way street?
Blaming everyone for all that you've done wrong
I'll get my peace of mind when you hear this song..."

~in Honor Thy Father, by Dream Theater

This is killing me.

I'm dying.

Help me.

Please.

*Iz