Nothing New

So now everyone is screaming at everyone else. The usual. Nothing new after almost three years.

Am I the only one who realises how fucking ridiculous it is?

And I'm the youngest of all. Go figure.

*Iz

Moving On

Sweet and innocently pure. Exactly how I remember you.

I'm glad you didn't say goodbye. I'm glad I don't have any sad memories of the moments we spent together. Because thinking about you doesn't make me sad anymore. It only makes me smile, thoughtfully.

Mourning time is over. Now it is time to move on.

Goodbye my girl. My fallen angel.

*Iz

Haunting Presence

Temperature rising. Hands wandering, searching the most sensitive bits of flesh.

Slight shudders, my body trembling as a reaction to my own touch.

Soft whimpers, low sounds escaping from my lips.

Suddenly, all self-control is lost in a sweet moment of maddening pleasure, as soft whimpers become audible moans. The awaited release of sexual tension finally comes and, as I find myself on the edge of the fine line that separates sanity from madness, I see you.

I see your eyes, staring. The intense gaze I remember from our very first encounter, penetrating my soul as if trying to see through me. I struggle to remind myself that your image is only the result of the tricks my mind keeps playing on me.

I fall asleep, your presence still haunting my room and my soul.

*Iz

A Vow of Silence

[in a stream of consciousness and slightly paranoid and exaggerated kind of way]

Nobody notices until it’s inevitable. Until I am needed to please them, to serve their purposes.

Then everybody wants to know why. They demand knowing the reason as if they have the right to.

They feel impatient, angry, exasperated. They don’t realise that it is not important why things happen, because it belongs to the past. One should only think about the present and wait patiently for the future. One should never dwell upon the past.

I learn that we shouldn’t ask so many questions. We should never ask a question unless we are completely sure that we are prepared to know the answer.

I learn that the human being has lost the capacity to communicate properly without the use of words. I learn that the human race will never be able to reach an appropriate level of agreement and cooperation. I learn that we have a massive flaw as living beings.

They can’t see beyond their interests. They are unable to understand one’s feelings and reasons. They get angry and hurt.

I learn that meditation is precious and that motivation leads you a step closer to higher self-esteem.

I learn that we should observe each other more often and touch each other more often. I learn that we tend to lose a great deal of information by reducing communication to mere words.

I learn something about myself. I learn that I am too selfish to break my vow in order to help a friend.

I learn that we shouldn’t talk so much. I learn that people probably consider being silent such a difficult task because they worry too much about talking instead of listening.

I learn that self-control is the key to success and that frustration is the key to failure.

I learn that silence brings peace.

*Iz