Guilt

Sometimes when I find myself on her presence, it feels as if nothing has changed. Suddenly I'm ten or eleven again and I don't ever want to grow older because it feels comfortable and I forget why it should feel wrong.

And then I hate myself for allowing it. For being such a fuck up. Because I'll end up seriously hurting someone who doesn't deserve to be hurt. Someone I love more than anyone in this world.

It's consuming me. The guilt is consuming me.

*Iz