Frustration

Isn't it utterly frustating spending an entire year preparing yourself for that final moment, and then, in the end, fucking it up? Well I just did that.

Fuck it. I'm tired of hearing all those people who are expecting me to do fine. Well, this time I'm not. I love you all very much, but please... Please shut the fuck up. Just for this once. Please offer me the chance to share my frustation with you. Please don't pretend that you know the end of the story. Because you don't.

Please let me know you're my friends.

*Iz

So Cute

My baby sister is unbelievably cute. Really.

*Iz

Air

And suddenly, I couldn't breathe.

I was desperately searching for air to fill my lungs but it seemed like there was none.

Luckily, there was someone who cared for me enough to come and help me. Everyone else must have thought that I was only crying. And one of them... One of them didn't even care. You selfish bastard.

Thank you big bro. I owe you one.

My heart is still beating fast. But, luckily, it is still beating.

*Iz

Keep Walking

I've just seen you. Ten, fifteen minutes ago.

At first I saw your hair. I didn't realise it right away, but I thought - it looks like her hair. Which came to me as no surprise since I keep seeing (or imagining) this kind of situation. Probably because I expect to see you in every corner.

Then, as I kept walking, I saw him, right in front of you. I just looked, it was a mere coincidence, because I didn't believe it was possible to see you there. It had never happened before, after all. And then, as I looked distractedly, it hit me. It was him. And you.

I didn't have the courage to look back so that I could see you. So I just kept walking.

I've just seen you. Twenty, twenty-five minutes ago. I haven't smiled ever since.

*Iz

Leisha Girl

"She's kinda freaky,
She's kinda weird...
She's kinda freaky,
But I don't know...

...I think she's a genius."

Loving Little Leisha.

*Iz

For you, my friend

I know that it may seem like hell. Like life is turning her back on you. But it isn't true, you have to keep fighting. Fight for your happiness, for your dreams. For your life. No matter what, never turn your back on life.

For you, my friend. With love.

*Iz

Up Against the Wall

Yes, I'm thinking about you. I've spent the last few days thinking about you. Wondering if you could reach me. Laughing at my own stupidity.

And I keep thinking about you. Up against the wall.

*Iz